Lost in infinity

I bury myself
in thoughts

of what if's
and why not's

I try so hard 

to gain control

but it just gets deeper

like a rabbit hole

I lay face down - 

layers of apprehensions
and ruminations

weighing me down

Can't seem to find
a way out

deeper in my mind,

I go about

Deeper I go

losing myself
in infinite loop

Little do I know

that it is just
a black hole
with no hope