Friday, 26 September 2008
HER: Hi! Bad day, huh?
ME: Oh no! There you are. Why is this happening to me? Everything is going out of my way. OK, now what? I wanted to be alone and you appear out of nowhere! WHY! WHY! WHY!
HER: Whoa! Hey relax! I noticed you were upset. Was just trying to give some company.
And she gave that weird smile of hers.
Actually I do like her in some way. She does drive me crazy, irritates me, pesters me and all that.. but then she has been there for me whenever I needed her.
HER: Soooooo... Tell me, are we going to walk all the way? I'm very tired and my legs are hurting badly. Can we take an auto? Please... please... Pleeeeeease?
Auto. Which means 3 things:
-FORTY RUPEES, minimum.
-I reach my room faster.
-Four blank walls waiting for me and nothing else.
That sounds sick!
ME: No. We will walk.
HER: Goddd! You are UN-IMAGINE-ABLE! Actually may I know what exactly is your problem? Don't you have a good family? Friends? Work? A place to live in? Food to eat?
ME: I don't know. THAT is my problem. I just don't know what my problem is,ok? That is my problem.
HER: Huh? Don't you think it sounds silly?
HER: Maybeeeee.. You need to fall in love with someone?
She winked and laughed at me.
ME: Come on! Stop that. I don't need that. I am fine. I'm happy the way I am right now.
HER: Oh yeah? That is just a mask you wear.
She laughed again, irritating me to the core.
ME: Stop that ok? Talk something else, or just leave me alone!
HER: Ok ok... You are the boss! Chill.. I will stop.
She smiled,turned and looked straight at the road, walking faster and dodging the crowd of people passing by.
I broke it.
ME: Say something
HER: I thought you wanted me to shut up.
She laughed again and stopped quickly as she noticed a guy coming near us. He was huge. Means really HUGE.
HER: Did you see? Did you just see how he stared at me? Bastard!
ME: You always do this. He wasn't even looking at you.
HER: He was! Didn't you notice?
ME: He did not.
HER: He did!!
ME: Did not.
HER: He did! He did!
ME: Alright! Stop shouting please. I needed peace remember??
HER: Oh yeah! All you care is about yourself. Has anyone ever told you how selfish you are?
ME: Shut up.
HER: No. I will not. You are one self-centered maniac! You only care about your own wishes. You think your the only one in this whole wide world who is dumped with problems? Listen to me when i'm talking to you!
She was getting too noisy.This is the worst part of HER. She never listens to me.I tried to divert myself. I noticed a small kid blowing bubbles near the platform. She did not even have a dress to cover herself. She was happy though.
ME: Hey look at that kid. She is so happy watching those bubbles floating in air.
HER: Cut it. OK so what are you trying to imply? That kid is homeless? Or, she is happy? She has no worries? So what are you going to do? Make her go to school? Provide her with free food? All you can do after this, sit down and write a page of short story filled with your stupid philosophy or click a photograph of that little kid and grab all attention.
' Hey wow! Nice picture yaar... So realistic...' NONSENSE!
ME:Hey hey hey! Hold it. All I can do is that. What else do you think I can do?
HER: You know what? You are good for nothing.
ME: Uh Thanks. That was really..uh..MOTIVATING!
HER: I'm tired. Let's sit down somewhere.
I took her to the park and we sat down on the bench munching popcorn.
ME: So what?
HER: Are you ok now?
ME: I guess so
HER: You are a good person
ME: You think?
HER: At least you are not that fussy type.
ME: Oh. Thanks.
HER: But you are hard to please and you are really adamant.
I liked the way she said that. And since I couldn't deny what she told, I just smiled.
We sat there for a long time. She was with me. But we never spoke. SILENCE.
I enjoyed every moment. I felt more relaxed. I saw someone approaching me. I recognized her. She was my ex-neighbour.
“ Hello, What a surprise! What are you doing sitting here all alone??”
ME: Just spending some time alone.
“Enjoying loneliness, eh?”
She laughed and hurriedly left. “ Hubby waiting, gotta go.. bye catch you later”
ME: See you.
HER: Funny world.
ME: Maybe. We are funny. World is alright.(I smiled) Ok, Let's go.
I got up and started walking. She followed me – My shadow. INNER SHADOW.
Thursday, 24 April 2008
7:50am I can still make it have 15mins at hand..Breakfast done. Tied my hair. Faster faster.Calculator,pen,pencils...off u go inside the bag..!
I'm missing something here.. My ID card! They won't let me inside the exam hall if i don't show them the card...
ID card ID cardddddddd...Where did it gooo?!
8:00am There's still hope of making it to the bus stop if i start RIGHT now!
But where is the ID carrrdddd...aaarrgggh... OH thank GOD! There it is... Wonder who put it under my bed?! :D hehe
8:10am No chance of boarding my college bus. It would sure have gone by now. Oh nooo..the crowded city bus ?! That too on an exam day :(
Thanks to dad.. i reached the bus stop and wow a direct bus and that is not crowded! My lucky day! Waved at dad and got inside..1st seat.. phew!
Opened my purse and all that was inside was a 100rs note... No change.
I turned to the lady sitting next to me.
ME: ermm...uh..excuze me? Do u have change for 100rs ?
LADY: -------------- (a cold stare)
ME: uh ok thanks!
Phew! HOW MEANNN... I promised myself that i should never turn that side again!
I tried asking people around but more cold stares and few kind hearted people managed to reply with a "NO" (without even checking their pockets of course!)
What a world :-/ I decided to face it. I gathered courage to speak up to the conductor.
ME: Engineering college.. uh you see i dont have change ( sheepish smile)
Conductor: Engg college? and you are giving me 100rs? !$%$%^@$%#$@%$#*#&@*#&@**#@*#@#*@*&#*@ early morning @$#^@$#^%$@%$@#
ME: ------ *blink blink*
Conductor(loudly) : NOW give me that!
He snatched the 100rs note and disappeared into the crowd. I sat there still blinking!
I slightly turned my head that side.. NO don't look... the cold stare again! Did i just commit a crime or something?!! :-O
I waited anxiously for the conductor to return. He did cross me several times and I'm sure I saw a bunch of 10s and 20s in his hand! And I couldn't believe he wouldn't give me the change willfully!
I felt like I'm trapped between the conductor on one side and of course Mrs. Meany on the other! :-|
Finally few moments before my stop arrives I get my change back with a killer look on the conductor's face!
ESCAPE! So relieved I got down from the bus! Off I go to the exam hall..
9:30am.. Great! Right on time! The question paper was in front of me.
I opened my pouch to take my pen out and GUESS WHAT?!
There was a 10rs note inside my pouch! :-O
So Lesson No. 2 ? If you have change with you, KEEP IT IN YOUR PURSE! :-/
What a day!
Sunday, 10 February 2008
well heres one thing i ve learnt about blogging as of now!
Its not meant for lazy bones like me :D :D
keep updating the blog (thats not quite easy for people like me! )
anyways i hope my next post comes out a bit sooner~~~~~